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My Body Image Homework

Again, Happy NEDA Awareness week everyone! I realized I missed blogging about athletes day yesterday (easily one of the most relatable of the themed days for me), but I still participated by hanging more posters:

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Girl’s locker room at the university gym!

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Boy’s locker room at the university gym… I had to have a male identifying person hang it up for me, I think the urinals are super close to the door, so I felt odd about going in…

In light of continuing eating disorder awareness, I wanted to share today’s entry from the 31 Day Journaling Challenge from the Art of Manliness. And, to be fair, I’m kind of cheating. Today’s prompt, day 18, wasn’t something I felt I could fully relate to. I mean, like building things, and I still love Legos, but I wasn’t feeling planning a project like I’m going to take over The New Yankee Workshop next week.

Sorry, Norm.

I decided to then take inspiration from a new podcast I stumbled across this morning, Fearless Rebelle Radio. This podcast is all about improving body image, disassociating image from self worth, and neat feminist rants. I’ve only heard two episodes so far, plus a guest episode Summer did on Progress not Perfection (another good podcast to check out), but I’m so glad I stumbled across it.

Summer talked about to write down five things that would be different if you were cool with your body. My five came really fast.

  1. Going to the gym without wearing a baggy university sweat shirt over your tank top.
    Pretty simple. I’m kind of getting over this a bit already. Sometimes its a legitimate “I’m cold because the Weight Room is a drafty old 80s gym” but a lot of the time I’m feeling insecure about how I look.
  2. Wearing a bikini in public with confidence.
    I’ve worn one a couple times but just felt like hiding the whole day.
  3. Having pictures taken of you in a bikini. 
    See #2.
  4. Wearing a crop top in public.
    Crop tops are SO SO SO cute, especially with high waisted shorts! I’m always quite jealous of the girls who wear them because they have the confidence to do so.
  5. Wearing a slimming gym outfit to the gym.
    Guh, I have this weird rule in my head about wearing a baggy shirt, with tight shorts OR a tight shirt, with leggings or pants. So “slimming” in this context means a tight shirt AND shorts.

The second part of this exercise was do three of the above things! Since swim suit season is a while away with projected snow this weekend, I’m going to go for #1, 4, and 5. The crop top thing could be iffy too, but when spring gets warmer I’ll do that. I’m getting pretty excited!

I will blog about these when they occur, and detail my thoughts. Make sure you check out the podcasts, and I’d love to hear your 5 body image things!

Hair on point. :)

Hair on point. 🙂

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An Excerpt from the 31 Day Journal Challenge – Day Six

Happy Wednesday folks! I’ve been planning on writing an entry on some cool things happening lately (HabitBull is quite effective), but for now I’m going to repost what I wrote in my pen and paper journal for the Art of Manliness Day Six Journal Challenge. I learned about these daily journal prompts it through the Crazy Kettlebell Girl’s month of doing the challenge. I thought it was a great idea. While I’m writing these mostly in my personal journal, I plan to post entries that I find that I feel are the creme of the crop, like my entry below for day six.

Day 6: Pick a quote from our 80-ish quotes on manhood and reflect on why it stands out to you. Does it reflect a man that you aren’t yet, but hope to be? Does one of them remind you of a great man in your life who you’ve tried to model? If you can’t seem to reflect on a single quote, just take the time to write out a few of them that you like. Doing so will keep them top-of-mind and perhaps lead to some thoughts later down the road.

“Strength, courage, mastery, and honor are the alpha values of men all over the world. They are fundamental virtues of men because without them no higher virtues can be entertained. You need to be alive to philosophize. You can add to these virtues and you can create rules and moral codes to govern them, but if you remove them from the equation althogether, you you aren’t just leaving behind the virutes that are specific to men, you are abandoning the virtues that make civilization possible.” – Jack Donovan

Why does this quote speak to me?

What honestly captured my attention was the “alpha” part. I want to be a bad bitch, an alpha female, and the best possible person I can be.

Strength + Courage + Mastery + Honor = a virtuous life

After leaving organized religion, it is difficult finding a personal code of ethics by which to govern one’s self. I know I can be a better person. I am on my way to being that better person. I wonder why Jack Donovan penned/said this quote. It really speaks to me, not necessarily in the context of manlihood (like the prompt was asking about) but in terms of mankind. If everyone applied this principle, myself included, we’d be much better off as people.

 

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